Jonas-Switzerland
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My kid's third bithday party is coming up. Its wild. Such a long time, and yet already gone like I blinked.
Last year I joined the forum for my first WSM cook, which was some boneless beef ribs for my kid's second birthday party. Its been an escape for me. Having a hobby even though I barely have any plannable spare time. Something to rummage about, so I don't have to think about my sick niece. Something to provide for my family, even when my daughter rejects me, cries I should leave her and mom alone.
I learned how bad the internet was when you are exhausted, and google about rejections. It said: "Maybe your kid just does not like you. Have you thought about that?" That voice in my head did not need affirmation.
I learned I have some chronic conditions, that all exacerbate symptoms when having to perform your parenting role of young children. All getting worse when times get tough. I thought that maybe with a diagnosis and treatment it would be better, easier. But sometimes there just is no easy way out. As it for me.
I learned how difficult it is to recuperate with family life. I would have needed extra sleep, extra time off just to sit. But my wife has a tough pregnancy. Barely any energy, constant pain and nausea. All in one form or another, had me step in.
Now its the start of the third trimester. My wife's feeling better, but now she's getting the usual symptoms of the third trimester. Tomorrow will be my kid's birthday party. Whole family is showing up. I love it, I hate it. I love my family, I hate having to push through yet another day. I am exhausted.
And that scares me. Soon another life comes into our family. It will be more hard times to come. And no breather in sight. Yet still, my Wife, kid, and baby are all healthy as far as we know. Health can just be gone from one day to the next. My daughter is now living her childhood memories. And for that reason alone, there is no turning back.
Just the existence of this site has helped me immensely. A little remnant of the dead internet. Nobody wants to sell me stuff. No bot wants to trick me. Its a quiet, friendly place that at some point, does not have any more messages. I also learned how much my phone just ate up my life. And this site slowly helps me living in the real world again.
The birthday cook will come tomorrow. For tonight, I leave you with two pictures of a quick faimily lunch, and a big thank you for this warm, friendly place in the corner of the internet.
Last year I joined the forum for my first WSM cook, which was some boneless beef ribs for my kid's second birthday party. Its been an escape for me. Having a hobby even though I barely have any plannable spare time. Something to rummage about, so I don't have to think about my sick niece. Something to provide for my family, even when my daughter rejects me, cries I should leave her and mom alone.
I learned how bad the internet was when you are exhausted, and google about rejections. It said: "Maybe your kid just does not like you. Have you thought about that?" That voice in my head did not need affirmation.
I learned I have some chronic conditions, that all exacerbate symptoms when having to perform your parenting role of young children. All getting worse when times get tough. I thought that maybe with a diagnosis and treatment it would be better, easier. But sometimes there just is no easy way out. As it for me.
I learned how difficult it is to recuperate with family life. I would have needed extra sleep, extra time off just to sit. But my wife has a tough pregnancy. Barely any energy, constant pain and nausea. All in one form or another, had me step in.
Now its the start of the third trimester. My wife's feeling better, but now she's getting the usual symptoms of the third trimester. Tomorrow will be my kid's birthday party. Whole family is showing up. I love it, I hate it. I love my family, I hate having to push through yet another day. I am exhausted.
And that scares me. Soon another life comes into our family. It will be more hard times to come. And no breather in sight. Yet still, my Wife, kid, and baby are all healthy as far as we know. Health can just be gone from one day to the next. My daughter is now living her childhood memories. And for that reason alone, there is no turning back.
Just the existence of this site has helped me immensely. A little remnant of the dead internet. Nobody wants to sell me stuff. No bot wants to trick me. Its a quiet, friendly place that at some point, does not have any more messages. I also learned how much my phone just ate up my life. And this site slowly helps me living in the real world again.
The birthday cook will come tomorrow. For tonight, I leave you with two pictures of a quick faimily lunch, and a big thank you for this warm, friendly place in the corner of the internet.
